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Monday, November 30, 2009

Two Months...

Baby Chase,

It is so hard to believe it's been two months since we saw your sweet face. In so many ways, it has felt like a lifetime since we've held you, and kissed your tiny nose. But, as we looked at all of your sweet pictures tonight, we could remember every moment as if it was yesterday. Oh, how I miss feeling the weight of holding you, and the joy of discovering each of your little parts. My heart aches to be your mommy and take care of you, baby boy.

We do have peace in knowing you are perfectly content right where you are...and that someday, we will get to kiss your nose, and be with you again in the way we want to, with no tears, and no sadness.

So much has happened in eight short weeks, and we have so many things to tell you about. I want you to know how you have changed our world...and how you have given your mommy and daddy a new perspective on this life we live. We cry for what we have lost, but we do so with hope and thanksgiving, because of what we have gained.

You are a precious boy, Chase Allen. And, we are honored to call you ours.

And, as you can see, you have many...many...many people who love you so much.

So, happy two month birthday...or, as Abby Kate sings so adorably, "Hap Bertday" to you. :)

26 comments:

Brandi said...

what a beautiful post. So sorry for your loss. I think of you all the time and just know that I'm praying for you and your family.

Amy said...

thanks so much for sharing these beautiful pictures. praying for you today.

Michelle said...

Beautiful baby boy! Thank you for sharing!

Traci said...

Oh Chelsea. Those pictures are beautiful. I have tears streaming right now and I am sending you lots of hugs from far away. I think about you so much and read every heartfelt post. Stay strong, sweet friend.

Rebekah said...

Chelsea thank you for sharing the pictures. Heart is breaking for you today, but sending you lots of love.

Kelli said...

What precious pictures and a sweet tribute!

Cortni said...

Oh, how I miss that sweet baby boy! Love you so much sister!

annalee said...

those pictures are just beautiful. i know they don't come close to the feeling of holding his sweet hand but i'm so glad you have them. chase has left his fingerprint on countless hearts!

MereMoore said...

Oh Chelsea-Chase is so precious! I have been thinking about you and praying for you so much. Thank you for sharing the pictures-He is so loved!

Melissa said...

Thank you for all of your posts - I finally caught up. I know it was hard, but I appreciate that you posted the pictures of Chase - beautiful. Also, wanted to thank you for encouraging us to send non-traditional gifts - especially those that help others. Instead of giving "token" gifts to our family members, we are all going in together to purchase a water filter for a family. Plus, I actually gave someone a dairy animal for Christmas. Yes, I did! And am proud of it...because of Chase. Thanks! Love you!

angie c said...

Oh, Chels, I'm just weeping for you. He's precious and beautiful and I'm so glad you shared those.

Love you so much. Hope to hug you very soon.

Paige said...

Chelsea- I will be praying for you today. It seems like it was about this point in my journey when I felt "okay" and then it went downhill again for a while. I am so thankful that you got such beautiful picutres with baby chase- thanks for sharing.

Alyssa said...

Oh, Chelsea. Like you, we cry for what you have lost but we do so with hope and thanksgiving for what we have all gained from your precious son. I love you.

Mr. and Mrs. Smith said...

Such sweet words and pictures. Thanks for sharing them with us. My prayers continue for you and your family.

Kristi

Shelley said...

Prayers and Hugs for you today and always :) Love you!

Ashley said...

Thank you so much for sharing these precious, beautiful, heartfelt moments with your precious boy. I love you and I am praying extra hard for you.

Mary said...

Happy Birthday sweet boy. I know they celebrated in Heaven. You are missed here, but we think of you often!

Mary said...

Chelsea. The pictures are gorgeous. He is beautiful! The picture you have with you and him is absolutely priceless.

Kim said...

Sweet Chelsea, My heart broke all over again for you. Thank you for sharing those precious pictures of your precious Chase. I was so hoping you would share them with us. He is as adorable as your girls! The one of you and Mark is a gift too. Thank you for being so vulnerable. I keep praying the Lord "carries you close to His heart." Much love and many prayers!

The Speck family said...

Beautiful moments...the tears are flowing here for me. Your sweet baby boy is so precious and perfect. Ever since Bennett was born and his brain damage occured, I have longed for heaven in such a deep, groaning way...where there is no more pain and suffering. I look forward to meeting your sweet son there one day too :). Thank you for sharing him with us.

The Sandersons said...

Beautiful pictures of your precious son! Thank you for sharing!

Sarah said...

Chelsea, you have such an amazing way with words and putting your thoughts down. Thanks for blessing my life today.

Amy Jill said...

Chelsea, I found your blog by way of my sister's, and had forgotten what an amazing woman of God you are. I've spent my morning reading your beautiful posts and weeping for you and your sweet family. I get that I will never really understand the aching place in your heart for Chase, but thank you for giving us a glimpse of how you work through sorrow with the Lord. Is it crazy that I needed a good cry? You have such a gift with words, and I so needed joy this morning. Thank you for sharing.

Kristen said...

Chelsea,
Your precious Chase is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your most treasured photographs with all of us. You are brave and courageous. You are changing lives. I read a book this week with the following scripture in it and I instantly thought of your precious boy. Jesus spoke it. "Very truly, I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, it bears much fruit." Sweet little Chase is bearing much fruit and will continue through you. You are changing lives. My heart aches for you and I pray daily for you and your family.
I love you,
Kristen

Kelly said...

Such beautiful pictures. I'm so glad you have these to remember.

Unknown said...

Catching up on your blog today - and overwhelmed with emotion seeing your beautiful pictures. He is precious. I LOVE the picture of you holding him. I am so thankful you shared these. You are in my thoughts and prayers this week. We love you guys!